What do you want to do to get her back?

Basically, I ask those question for myself. I lost my real love couple years ago and until this day I cannot forget her eventhough just for one day. Her face haunt me everyday. I cannot forgive myself because I made some mistakes that makes her leave me alone with despair and regrets. Every day and every night I thinking about how to get her in my arms again. I know that is not easy to do because all that I’ve done to her is so bad. I make her cry in front of me and say that she was really disappoint about me. she told me that I must go away and never come back to her forever. She told me that she was really hurts about what I’ve done. I hurts her over and over again, and she couldn’t forgive me anymore. she said that it’s enough to me chance again. She feel tired that she give chance but I disappoint her again. What kind of fool am I?! later on I realize that I couldn’t found someone that is better than her. I feel so regret. But it’s too late. I only have small chance to get her back. But, no matter how small the chance is, I will keep on trying as long as she still not married with anyone else. I keep on trying.